infinitERB

The premise

infinitERB is my identity, it’s both how and why I exist, and yes, it’s also a fun play on words that includes my last name. I do this through trying to reason through things, to understand my existence itself. And when that gets exhausting or I hit a wall, I put my belief somewhere to continue on. It’s a messy process, but it always starts with IDK, I don’t know, my favorite words.

It’s true, it takes the weight off of me, and it gives me something to try and figure out. I first must accept this and be ok with it, and then I can choose to reason, figure it out, separate the black from the white, or believe, let things be, trust others, and let the black and white reveal themselves.

The truth is it’s all at least a little gray though, there’s always some black in the white and white in the black. Now that may seem pretty dull and boring, but in that search, as we’re uncovering the truth of this black and white we’re sorting out, which often looks gray, we find a whole bunch of color.

Love is what illuminates this, love in that search allows us to keep trying to figure it out, but also to believe the findings and infinitely update those conclusions with the findings of others. With love we are one, with love we are infinitERB. It’s not just me.

I think I’m more clear in poems though. Too many words make too much black and white, a poem keeps things gray, but with enough love, I hope it gives some color: